Voices: “Once More, Into the Breach”

Thank you for joining me once again! The fourth poem in this series describes the process of psychotherapy. It describes my process, anyway. I had the benefit of excellent therapy from excellent providers, including social workers, psychiatrists, and trauma specialists. I was able to really work through everything that happened to me, and get to a point where I no longer experience any PTSD symptoms whatsoever. It took almost twelve years to get there; the work was intense, at times brutal, but I stuck with it. I never lost the feeling that there was going to be a pay off in the end. And I never felt alone in my pain. I do not regret a single moment I spent in therapy; I only wish everyone who needs it could receive the extraordinary level care that I did.

To everyone who helped me over the years, I am forever grateful.

10/10/04

Once More, Into the Breach

I come here week after week

We talk about present and past

I try to open my mind

Find answers to questions we ask

I pause at the door to this room

Where memories lay raw and exposed

To enter’s to fall back in time

To analyze all I’ve disclosed

We trouble the waters of Self

And stretch the boundaries of my mind

I stumble through tunnels of grief

Then out of the depths I must climb

Touching in, then pulling back

Is the only way I can survive

The images flooding so fierce

The emotions that I have revived

This process is a long, winding path

Which only the brave will travel

It’s the path that leads me out of darkness

So I may let my future unravel

© Sarah Henderson 2004

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About writingforrecovery

Sarah is a writer and poet who speaks out about issues that make people uncomfortable. Sarah advocates for causes such a sexual assault, domestic violence, child abuse, and mental illness, and often speaks openly about her own experiences. She is determined to abolish the stigma associated with these issues and believes that it starts with people telling their stories, so she started a blog called Writing for Recovery where people can do just that. She is the author of three volumes of poetry and is currently at work on her fourth. She is convinced that there's a novel somewhere in her, and occasionally picks at the chapters so far. View all posts by writingforrecovery

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