Thank you for joining me for the final week of our “Voices” series. This week I want to focus on the recovery side of mental illness- at least, the journey towards recovery. This short poem was written in a little burst of self-awareness I had about five years ago. I was still extremely ill, and just a couple of months away from entering inpatient care. But every now and then something would break through my denial and it would occur to me that eventually this shit would have to stop if I was going to survive. This was one of those moments.
5/26/06
Flawless
What does it mean to be perfect?
I have searched my whole life but don’t know
I have tried and have lied and I’ve nearly died
And I’ve put on a grand little show
But the truth, I’ve discovered, is that there’s no magic
There’s no way to opt out of yourself
There’s only this life, and if you choose to stay
You must play the hand you’ve been dealt
There are rules in this life by which you must abide
And you can be pissed and that’s fine
But you will have to eat, take your pills, and take care
Of the body that houses your mind
You will learn to accept things that you used to hate
You will learn that perfection can’t be
You will learn that your so-called flaws make you you
And that self-respect will set you free
If you want to move on then you will have to grieve
And you’ll have to fight like all hell
But when it’s all over, the pain will subside
And you’ll be able to say “I am well”
© Sarah Henderson 2006
May 25th, 2011 at 2:08 am
Inspiring and fitting end to this series.
May 25th, 2011 at 2:09 am
That last comment was accidentally under her acct but by her mother.
May 27th, 2011 at 3:27 pm
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