Hello everyone, I hope you’re having a good Recovery Month!. I wanted to share with you a piece that I wrote quite awhile ago, and I didn’t even think to share for this month, but I was reminded today by someone who posted a link to a memorial site on the WfR Facebook page. Under the description of the site is a fairly well-known piece of writing by Sumeet Gunti entitled “I Am Your Disease.” It’s kind of a resume for addiction; it describes how addiction “thinks” and what it wants. It’s disturbing, appropriately so. What I’ve never seen, however, is an answer to this. A resume for Recovery. So, clearly, I had to write one. Here are both pieces, Gunti’s and mine, back to back. I hope I did an adequate job of telling Addiction where it can go.
I AM YOUR DISEASE
I hate meetings.
I hate Higher Power.
I hate anyone who has a Twelve Step program.
To all who come in contact with me,
I wish you death and I wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself.
I am the Disease of Addiction.
Cunning, baffling, and Powerful.
I have killed millions, and I am pleased.
I love to catch you with the element of surprise.
I love pretending I am your friend and lover.
I have given you comfort, have I not?
Wasn’t I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn’t you call me?
I was there. I love to make you hurt.
Better yet, I love when I make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry.
You can’t feel anything at all.
This is true Glory.
I will give you instant gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering.
I’ve always been there for you.
When things were going right in your life, you invited me.
You said you didn’t deserve these good things and I was the only one who would agree with you.
Together we were able to destroy all the things good in your life.
People don’t take me seriously.
I do not come uninvited.
You choose to have me.
So many have chosen me over reality and peace.
More than you hate me,
I hate all of you who have a 12 step program.
Your program, your meeting, your higher power:
All weaken me and I can’t function in the manner I am accustomed to.
Now I must lie here quietly.
You don’t see me.
But I am growing, bigger than ever.
WHEN YOU ONLY EXIST, I MAY LIVE.
WHEN YOU LIVE, I ONLY EXIST.
But I am here.
Until we meet again,
If we meet again,
I WISH YOU DEATH
AND I WISH YOU SUFFERING!!
By Sumeet Gunti
I am your RECOVERY
I love life
I love beauty
I love joy
I love anyone who supports my existence in you
To all who come in contact with me
I wish you health and happiness
Allow me to introduce myself
I am RECOVERY from self-destruction
Alive, wonderful, empowering
I have saved millions, and I am overjoyed
I love to hold you in reverie
I love to be your friend and kind attendant
I have helped you learn to comfort yourself
And you do not feel alone anymore
We are one on your path to life
I am here
I love to see you smile
I love to hear your voice
Better yet, I love to see you feel a full range of emotions, knowing that you can handle them
You can feel and love deeply
This is true Grace
I will give you contentment and all I ask is commitment
I will always be there for you
When things were going wrong in your life, you invited me
You said, I DESERVE GOOD THINGS and I agreed with you
Together, we are able to create all the good things in your life
When you are fully committed to me, you will be taken seriously
Like self-destruction, I do not come uninvited
You have to choose me
So many have chosen me to find reality and peace
More than you love me
I love all of you who support me
Your love, your faith, your kindness
All strengthen me and I work better than I thought possible
Now I must reach out to you
You will see me
I am growing, and self-destruction is fading away
Only when I exist will you live
Only when you live, may you thrive
I am here
I’m not going anywhere
I wish you strength and inner peace
And all the joy the world has to offer
By Sarah Henderson